14 June 2006

RAW Choice Cut: Fort Minor - "Where'd You Go"

"But think twice, that's my only advice."
- Gnarls Barkley
Life's been weird lately. I've had a friend of mine who I grew up with get pregnant. I've got a family member following foot for foot in one of his parent's footsteps (and that's not a good thing). And those two things are just the tip of the iceberg. Ah well, life happens. Times like this are where you just shrug everything off, be thankful that you're blessed to not have the same misfortunes, and keep moving forward.

"And I've become content with this life that I lead..."
- Straylight Run
At work we're getting ready to hire a new person and we just hired a newbie a few weeks back. That being said, I've been able to have a few conversations with my boss about my interview process. Apparently it went a lot better than I thought it did (I guess since I got the job out of 42 applicants, that goes without saying). We talked about our respective thoughts after the interview was over and she even filled me in on the Coastal Region Manager's point of view. At the end there was myself and another candidate, and while they both liked the other person, I was hired because "he's too good to let him go somewhere else." According to my manager, the CRM saw a lot of potential in me and if he couldn't get me into the Florence office, he was going to get me somewhere.
Well that's good to know, but I can feel the let down coming already. I have no desire to make claims handling a career. Its fun and everyday is definitely different, but its not me. Its just a filler job until I get struck by lightning and figure out exactly what it is I want to devote my life too. On the flipside, I'm not looking forward to letting my manager and the CRM down when I do decide to depart. I've never been a big fan of leaving somewhere without fulfilling my potential -- as to me "potential" is just "greatness that hasn't been realized."

"Meet me at the altar in your white dress..."
- Jagged Edge
So one of my best friends is getting married. To say I'm excited about it is an understatement. Its almost kind of cool. Not only am I sure its going to be an outstanding ceremony, but its also going to be a time of celebration. Add to this I've already been asked to be the best man, this shindig is going definitely going to be good times. And call me psychic, but I've got a feeling this will be one of the more "random" weddings I've been to. Between an AKA stepshow possibly breaking out and having (hopefully) the entire 52B-Unit in attendance, randomliarity is almost guaranteed. As is the playing of "Roxanne" by The Police at the reception...

"Be a good man, to one time, to one woman, and that'll be the end of the road."
- Janis Joplin
And while I'm on the subject of weddings and relationships, let's talk about me for a second (only because subtlety doesn't seem to work). I don't like meeting people at bars or clubs. Especially not randomly. It's not my style. I don't like "spitting game" because a) I have none, and b) its pointless. I don't like random hookups (well I do, but not really). I'm not a fan of one night stands. I actually judge women on things other than how round their ass is or how ample their breasts are (though my alter-ego would have you believe otherwise). The game of how many notches I can put in a headboard isn't one I've ever really had a desire to play.
If we're going to play matchmaker, give me an equal. Find me a girl I can have conversations with. A girl who is about doing something with her life and isn't just planning on working at Applebee's for as long as possible. Wit and sarcasm are an added bonus, but if she doesn't have them fine -- I've got enough for the both of us (she's gotta be random though). I don't need a beauty queen, cause Lord knows my ego is already through the roof, but she's got to take care of herself. And that's it. Hell, she doesn't even have to have all of the preceding qualities -- just something for me to work with. Hooking me up with Random Girl #4 to me at a bar does nothing for me. She maybe cute, but if I even get the inkling that she's dumb as a box of rocks I can't even feign interest anymore. I appreciate the random (and I stress the word random) games of matchmaker, but if she's not a good foil for me, I'm better off riding solo.

"I've been looking so long at these pictures of you, that I almost believed that they're real."
- The Cure
Lately I've had a thing for pictures. Not so much the pictures themselves, but the "moment." Sometimes you take a picture and everything about that moment freezes in time. Its almost as if you're looking at your life from the third person and you can see the picture develop before it even shows up in the viewfinder. But not only that, you remember the sounds, the feelings, the lights...everything about that moment just sticks with you. Its almost as if when you do get to finally see the actual picture, no matter how great it is, you're kind of upset that it doesn't live up to what you had already imagined in your head.

"They say your luck is found, the third time around."
- Angie Aparo
I've made mistakes before. Some I'm on the verge of repeating again. Its definitely best to keep an eye out for situations where you might regret not acting. You'll thank yourself later.

"But the abscence of your tears gave you away."
- Vendetta Red
I've been really mean to someone lately. What'd I do? Nothing. Which was probably the meanest thing I could have done. At first I don't think they understood, but then they looked me in the eyes. I'm pretty certain they could see the emptiness behind them. After that, everything became crystal clear and no one said a word -- which was probably the best for everyone invovled.

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