Resurrection: new world order

"Soon will the present-day order be rolled up, and a new one spread out in its stead."
- Bahá'u'llá

I've had my fun since I've moved back to the upstate. At least it feels that way. Every possible thing that my alter-egos wanted to do I think they somehow managed to squeeze into a one week period...

Piddy's gone downtown five out of the past seven days and the only thing stopping him the other two days was class on Monday and Blue Laws on Sunday. He's gotten a fair share of football and videogames in while neglecting pretty much everything of importance. There's been good times with Chad and somehow, someway he's managed to spend more time with Jen (she's always funtimes) than anyone else so far. It's been fun.

Then on the flipside emoTerence has done his thing as well. Unfortunately. Worrying about the unimportant stuff. Getting overly emotional about a girl (scroll down a post...) for reasons unbeknownst to me (weren't we past all this already?) Stretching himself too thin to make unnecessary accomodations. Nice to know nothing's changed much.

And that stops here. Well stopped. Today was the first day where I remembered that this whole encore was supposed to be about me. I'm keeping my New Year's resolutions. I went to church. Willingly. Hell, I left Tracie in bed to go - and that's a big no-go no matter which Terence you talk to. I took time out for myself today to just be with myself. Sure, that invovled a little Zelda time, but I also got some studying done. I'm also continuing to work out because hey, they beer gut has got to go. And the last resolution about slowing life down a bit -- yeah, I'm not going out at all this coming week. No going out equals more time to do everything else I want to do along with keeping more money in my pocket.

Well while I've got those goals going, I want to add two more into the fire. Stuff I want to accomplish by the end of the month (well, February the 2nd).
Numero Uno - I need a job. I enjoy the downtime, but let's get real here.
Numero Dos - Start a budget again. Its one thing to not know how much is coming in, but its a whole 'nother story to not know what's going out.

It all begins again...

12 January 2007

RAW Choice Cut: The Killers - "Smile Like You Mean It"
"Dreams aren't what they used to be. Some things sat by so carelessly."

"There's nothing left to prove."
- Our Lady Peace
In many things you do, there's a point where you realize that the energy being output isn't worth the reward that's received in turn. Work, school, relationships, whatever. And once that point is reached, that's the point where you decide do "just enough."

"You clear your conscience with words so weak and empty. But something in your eyes gave you away."
- Vendetta Red
A lot can be deciphered from a person's eyes. Their mood, their emotions, their feelings. Its like reading a book. But at the same time, have you ever stepped back and attempted to look into your own eyes? Its amazing how your face will give off exactly what you're feeling. Sometimes, thats a plus. Other times, not so much.

"Either way, options change. Chances fail, trains derail."
- t.A.T.u.
Everyone always says that "Its best to confront a problem head on. Ignoring it isn't going to make it go away." While true, I think we all know that in times of uncertainty, its best to let time take its course. You don't always need a plan or a blueprint, sometimes its best to just ride life to where you're meant to be.

"I know how to fake it and I know just how to scheme. I know when just to face the truth and then I know just when to dream."
- Air Supply
Sometimes you knew from the very beginning what you were getting into...