5 January 2004

RAW Choice Cut: Evanescence - "My Immortal (Band Version)"

I'd prefer an instrumental right now, but I don't want to look for it at the moment. The words just don't really convey what I'm thinking completely, but the music speaks to me.

Sometimes the winds that blow are not just some simple breeze. Sometimes what'd you like to be the winds of change carry the past along for the ride. It's like the smell of the night air floods your brain with memories you thought you had forgotten. Some good. Some bad. Some interesting. But memories nonetheless. Then when your present catches up to you and taps you on the shoulder, you look it in the eye, and you just completely draw a blank. You kinda just wanna swim around in the old memories for a little bit longer. And when you snap back into it (or just get cold from being outside) you realize something - yep. That's a new memory you just made. Pleased with it?

"I'm just a dreamer. I dream my life away…" - Ozzy Osbourne
I give my imagination credit. I'm never at a loss for scenarios. I can see a whole forest. I can see it flourish into a giant rain forest. I can see it burn to the ground in a raging inferno. But somewhere along the line, I kinda forget to plant the first tree in the ground. Then after all that I decide, "I don't have a green thumb. Why am I planting trees?" Next thing I know I've moved on to some other task that looks great to start.

"And you fall and you crawl, and you break, and you take what you get and you turn it into honesty…"
- Avril Lavigne
Sometimes you receive so much data and information you really don't know how to use it. Some of the data would be great to have if you could process it quicker. The information would be wonderful if you knew how to benefit from it. I seriously believe life should come with a quick troubleshooting handout. Especially when it comes to life changing decisions. A quick time out would be nice. Not even a full, a 20 sec. would be good.

"(There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface. Consuming…) Confusing what is real."
- Linkin Park
Its like I have something on my mind but I just can't get to it. Whatever it is it's doing a damn good job of keeping me up at night late, yet waking me up before I'm rested. Whatever it is, I'm sure its gonna make life interesting. Oh well… At least it won't come as a surprise.

"I'm that nigga that they love to hate. I'm gonna make you use your mind, God has sent the sign. And when you listen to these rhymes, nigga take your time. Against I ask, if heaven was hell and vice versa..."
- Pastor Troy

T_Piddy: Mirrors. A lot of times you look into mirrors. You take 'em for granted sometime, unless your me. Then you're quite fond of them. But occasionally you look into that mirror and you question what's reflected back at you. Sometimes you wonder if what you're looking at is what's for real or just what'd you like to see. Either way, you're gonna stay pretty damn close to that mirror. And people call me conceited… :-)